It's fine that you are different, it is I who simply... could not adjust fast enough. I thought all would eventually be alright, kept in the dark as I was when I arrived here.
[Thats right. He did not want to burden Hythlodaeus, so he fell into the arms of another. ]
I don't know how to do what he does. I could figure it out, maybe.
[It's hard to believe that he's enough like this. Even if he says it. He may be needed, but...]
[Finally he looks at Hythlodaeus again, giving his hand a squeeze. But he realize that's not really the matter, it isn't that Hythlodaeus needs to, it's that he wants to. He wants to help Hades, but it's so damn hard to just let that happen.
Byleth gets away with it because he thinks of it on his own, but Hythlodaeus lacks such intuitive empathy, because he always has. Which, wasn't a problem back when Hades suffered mostly headaches and inconveniences.
But now, he's burdened by trauma, grief, and guilt, in quantities that are simply unfathomable for most, but especially for someone like Hythlodaeus plucked straight from paradise.]
But you wish to, you wish to help me, support me as you always have. It is unfair for you to must needs adjust, to weather a burden like this. This is not your failing, Hythlodaeus, this is not your fault.
[He takes in and lets out a measured breath, not quite a sigh, but a little more than a mere exhale. Trying to steady himself.]
What I suffered...even the me from those halcyon days would know little what to do. Do not blame yourself for this, Byleth's knowledge is not merely innate, but learned through living in a cruel world. I would gladly suffer a thousand times more to spare you from such agony.
All I need from you is your company, your love...and mayhap some tenderness, more than I required in the past. I need not such grand gestures as what he has provided, as much as I appreciate them, what I need is you.
[Hythlodaeus stands only to plop himself into Hades' lap. He places a hand on his cheek and squeezes his hand. His voice carries a little joke in it as he speaks close to his face.]
As loathe as I am to accept additional responsibilities, I think this I can manage.
[As Hythlodaeus stands up, Hades watches him with muted surprise, uncertain why he's risen—until he's climbing into his lap. Immediately he adjusts to allow Hythlodaeus to properly deposit himself there. The hand on his cheek invites him to tilt his head into it, drinking up the simple affectionate gesture.
Hythlodaeus' comment earns him a little bit of a smirk as he gazes up at him through his lashes.]
How gracious of you, I am truly so terribly lucky.
[He squeezes Hythlodaeus' hand, then releases it to put his arms around him, holding him close as he keeps his eyes on him.]
Now, will you stop scaring Byleth? He really doesn't deserve it, and I think if you gave him a proper chance, unclouded by my failings, you'll rather come to like him.
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[Thats right. He did not want to burden Hythlodaeus, so he fell into the arms of another. ]
I don't know how to do what he does. I could figure it out, maybe.
[It's hard to believe that he's enough like this. Even if he says it. He may be needed, but...]
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[Finally he looks at Hythlodaeus again, giving his hand a squeeze. But he realize that's not really the matter, it isn't that Hythlodaeus needs to, it's that he wants to. He wants to help Hades, but it's so damn hard to just let that happen.
Byleth gets away with it because he thinks of it on his own, but Hythlodaeus lacks such intuitive empathy, because he always has. Which, wasn't a problem back when Hades suffered mostly headaches and inconveniences.
But now, he's burdened by trauma, grief, and guilt, in quantities that are simply unfathomable for most, but especially for someone like Hythlodaeus plucked straight from paradise.]
But you wish to, you wish to help me, support me as you always have. It is unfair for you to must needs adjust, to weather a burden like this. This is not your failing, Hythlodaeus, this is not your fault.
[He takes in and lets out a measured breath, not quite a sigh, but a little more than a mere exhale. Trying to steady himself.]
What I suffered...even the me from those halcyon days would know little what to do. Do not blame yourself for this, Byleth's knowledge is not merely innate, but learned through living in a cruel world. I would gladly suffer a thousand times more to spare you from such agony.
All I need from you is your company, your love...and mayhap some tenderness, more than I required in the past. I need not such grand gestures as what he has provided, as much as I appreciate them, what I need is you.
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As loathe as I am to accept additional responsibilities, I think this I can manage.
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Hythlodaeus' comment earns him a little bit of a smirk as he gazes up at him through his lashes.]
How gracious of you, I am truly so terribly lucky.
[He squeezes Hythlodaeus' hand, then releases it to put his arms around him, holding him close as he keeps his eyes on him.]
Now, will you stop scaring Byleth? He really doesn't deserve it, and I think if you gave him a proper chance, unclouded by my failings, you'll rather come to like him.