Perhaps something that would make his anger feel more justified? Something that would truly demonize his creation in some way that this hurt could merely be fueled into more anger. Anything at all that could dry up this ocean of misery, yet he finds it only expanding. The more he sees him, hears him...the more difficult it all is.
The answers leave him feeling hollow and petty. Yet, he cannot shake feeling justified in his anger—what Hythlodaeus did was cruel. He lead him astray, and while he will fully admit to his part in the infidelity he committed, he certainly would not have been tempted if he had known.
And now what does that leave him with? A broken heart and a broken shade, as if he hadn't enough misery already. Though, he's certain things with Dirk are not final, that the man wanted to interact with him still at all, regardless of it being more work-oriented than not, was an in. Was a means to amend.
But this? Between him and Hythlodaeus—his mistaken creation that was an oversight due to his own longing and love? This simulacrum that could never be that which he replicates. Never fill the hole that he left. Even if his heart's sole desire is to be the man he was made after, he cannot.
It is simply...impossible. Or so Hades believes.]
...I trust you realize all of this has ended in failure, yes? You cannot be Hythlodaeus, only a replica of him. You could not hide my inevitable demise from me, for it was meant to be, and lastly—
[His jaw tightens, his arms having since unfolded, they hang at his sides with his hands balled into fists.]
—you have brought naught but despair, and my tempering or lack thereof has naught to do with it! You have acted beyond your bounds, dared trifle with that which a being such as you should never, and with it you have betrayed and wounded me.
So, what then, what do you plan to do? What was your contingency should I find out—because despite the fact you wished to keep this a secret, you certainly felt the need to tell others. To raise suspicion! I daresay, you might have succeeded at one thing had you kept that mouth of yours shut, but no! You could not even achieve that much!
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Perhaps something that would make his anger feel more justified? Something that would truly demonize his creation in some way that this hurt could merely be fueled into more anger. Anything at all that could dry up this ocean of misery, yet he finds it only expanding. The more he sees him, hears him...the more difficult it all is.
The answers leave him feeling hollow and petty. Yet, he cannot shake feeling justified in his anger—what Hythlodaeus did was cruel. He lead him astray, and while he will fully admit to his part in the infidelity he committed, he certainly would not have been tempted if he had known.
And now what does that leave him with? A broken heart and a broken shade, as if he hadn't enough misery already. Though, he's certain things with Dirk are not final, that the man wanted to interact with him still at all, regardless of it being more work-oriented than not, was an in. Was a means to amend.
But this? Between him and Hythlodaeus—his mistaken creation that was an oversight due to his own longing and love? This simulacrum that could never be that which he replicates. Never fill the hole that he left. Even if his heart's sole desire is to be the man he was made after, he cannot.
It is simply...impossible. Or so Hades believes.]
...I trust you realize all of this has ended in failure, yes? You cannot be Hythlodaeus, only a replica of him. You could not hide my inevitable demise from me, for it was meant to be, and lastly—
[His jaw tightens, his arms having since unfolded, they hang at his sides with his hands balled into fists.]
—you have brought naught but despair, and my tempering or lack thereof has naught to do with it! You have acted beyond your bounds, dared trifle with that which a being such as you should never, and with it you have betrayed and wounded me.
So, what then, what do you plan to do? What was your contingency should I find out—because despite the fact you wished to keep this a secret, you certainly felt the need to tell others. To raise suspicion! I daresay, you might have succeeded at one thing had you kept that mouth of yours shut, but no! You could not even achieve that much!